Feeling Overwhelmed

I have never had so many mood swings as I do lately. One minute I am fine, singing along to the radio, enjoying the gorgeous weather and then the next minute I am in tears. This is not how things were supposed to happen. I like when I have a plan, stick with it and see it through to the end. Now, I am so far off from the original plan, I fear I don't think I'll ever make it back. I am worried about myself. I know I am stressed; I just am not sure how stressed and how much stress I can actually handle without totally losing it. I wake up every night in a cold sweat, my jaw is aching because I am constantly grinding my teeth or clenching my jaw so tight, and these damn mood swings...
To f/u on my bladder issues, I saw a urologist yesterday, Dr. Zimmerman. He is ordering a CT scan so he can better see this mass, and then he is going to surgically remove it, and then biopsy it. I am hoping that once it is removed, this pain goes away (although today is a very minimal pain day which is one good thing!). We are on a forced break from TTC for now, until this is figured out. On a positive note, the doctor is young, good looking and compassionate :)